I'm not going to bother with anyone's problems anymore. I'm just going to care about myself and the two people I currently, truely care about. I can't be everywhere with everyone anymore. I just can't.

For the past three days I've been hurting. Whether I seem upset, angry, happy, deep down I'm just really hurting to an extent I thought I'd never want to reach. But this is what it has come down to. So be it. You know, I really shouldn't be the one to be so affected by any of this and some of you have realized this. But you are the one that doesn't understand how this is affecting me. It is still settling within me and it may actually take me some time to actually get use to.

Friends. You aren't my friends anymore. Really...you aren't. You're simply just an acquaintances. And I'd rather not get deeper then that because I got different lists to put each and every single one of you under. There is only one person I can call my friend. I'm getting advice from family and from within myself. It all points down to realizing who your friends are.

Tests, tests, tests. Thats all I'm being given this year. A test for my patients. A test for my loyalty. A test for my trust. And above all, a test to see who is and who isn't. And now that I realize, day by day that goes by, I really don't have any friends. I realize friends are many a few, in other words you will have very little friends in your life and they are hard to come by.

And so this is the end. I will say that all of you were great and all of you suck ass too. No offence but that's a comment that comes from the heart. Whether we speak or not, just know that I got love for you. I realize that even if you don't talk to someone, don't like someone, or anything negative, you should always have love for them. Have love in your heart. But yes, I can't spend this year wasting my time on petty things. I got a life ahead of me and I want to live it.


~~Keep A Good Flow~~

~~JESS~~